WHAT DOES CHANGE MEAN TO YOU?

Yesterday always inspires today. Today always inspires tomorrow,

And I love that.

If we’re really trying to get better, be better, live better, than we have previously agreed that we are indeed trying to-and are okay with-change. Change can be scary. It demands adjustments. It demands that we step outside of our comfort zone, becoming comfortable with the uncomfortable. Change isn’t easy. It’s far simpler to only have one answer, allow no second pursuits, write your schedule in pen instead of pencil.

But no one is expecting easy here. You are looking for change.

Maybe you’re excited. Maybe you’re scared. Scared it may hurt. Excited it may not.

Picture yourself stronger, braver, tougher, more extraordinary than your previous self. Learn not to fear your surroundings. Never fear them. Respect the challenges others offer throughout your exploration. Allow your competitors to inspire you. Inspire you to teach things they can reach. Inspire you to prove them wrong. Prove everybody wrong. Defy your own limits.

Positive change is powerfully admirable.  Admirableness is remarkably contagious. Once others see your former self fading and transforming into this newer, braver, peaceful human being fulfilled with life and opportunities, they will be reflected back with your positivity. Be the change. Conquer the world.

Becoming Vulnerable-Let Go of Fear of Rejection

Allow yourself to become vulnerable. Let yourself be hurt or sad or angry. I give you permission to not be a rainbow-colored diamond-studded unicorn with sprinkles and a pot of gold all the time. Life is hard. You’re allowed to feel, have a shitty mood or shitty week or shitty month or be pissed the fck off. You’re growing. You’re putting yourself out there. You were plunged into something and didn’t allow yourself to cave into the pessimistic thoughts and/or actions. It’s easy to give up. And you didn’t. Be proud of that.

You stepped out of your comfort zone, and although you may have not gotten the results you were expecting, at least you know you tried. Do you know how many people don’t even try? I would rather risk my vulnerability, even with that rejection staring right at me, than know I simply sat back and didn’t attempt anything.

Maybe you’ve gone to your friends, asking them what to say in your stuck situation. They’ll hand you a band-aid to smother on your wounds so you can feel momentarily soothed. Maybe you take yet another risk, trying to dig a little deeper. Maybe then you end up only to find yourself sunken deeper into that black hole of loneliness.

But, my dear friend, let me tell you. You are meant to feel. We live in a world full of feeling, although it may seem those feelings are only positive. However, i can assure you we were born to be bitter, heartbroken, frustrated, feeling like you want to give up and end it all. Engage in conversations that fire you up. Release that envy, that malevolence, that apathy. This, is when you’ll grow. This is when you’ll heal. Grow out of who you used to be. Don’t settle for someone else’s stubbornness to dictate your freedom.

Allow yourself to become unprotected, sensitive. Spend your friday night crying into your pillow case. Let yourself be wrong. Don’t live with the thought of having to maintain this constant feeling of happiness and virtue every damn day. Some situations, people, places, things..will bring you down. And what do you do from there? Let yourself feel. This is where you’ll branch out and grow, grow, grow.

Life is a process. We have difficult times for a reason. Don’t let them be washed away.

Journey To Serenity

“Be patient. Sometime you have to get through the worst to achieve the best”

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You know those days when you’re feeling oddly happy? Like life is finally treating you right again, giving you the many laughs you deserve, cause tears to drip down your cheeks from smiling so much. Those couple hours of that random monday afternoon spent with people you never thought you would spend time with, yet they manage to liven up your soul. Those moments where you can’t hear the rest of the world because you’re able to be in the moment, absorbing this serenity.

Those are the beautiful moments. Remember those times when you’re thoughts get the best of you, leaving you feeling rather worthless and hopeless. Remember that fluttering of your eyelashes and sparkle in your eyes that occurred when you were brought to such euphoria.

And if you don’t believe those days will ever come, trust me, right here right now, they will. Stand in front of the mirror and speak those words to yourself. Tell yourself every night right before bed that days will get better, and no longer will they drag on. You will get excited to wake up, go places, try new things, explore the unknown.  It may have taken me years to realize this, but little did i know it the good times are slowly but surely beginning to outweigh the bads. For the first time in a while, i can truly say “I am beginning to gain my life back”. And it has never felt so great.

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“Be crazy. Be weird. Be stupid. Be silly. Be whatever. Because life is too short to be anything but happy”

Explore

It is five in the morning in your small town.  In each minute that passes, you begin to deepen your breath, escape the old thoughts that may try to jump back into your mind, and replace them with the embracement of the sunrise shining through your blinds, exposing you to the beautiful colors of the universe. You venture out, explore the neighborhood. Branch out from your mind, letting your legs take you where ever they please. Perhaps you find yourself seated at that coffee shop downtown everyone goes to Friday afternoons. Grab yourself a cup of joe, and sip away your thoughts. Maybe some negativity may start to creep into your what-was-once-calm mind. The kind that murmurs in your ears, telling you “you don’t deserve this” or “you aren’t good enough to be here, go back to bed and hide from the world.” Remind yourself that there are ups and down molded into this world. Mountains and valleys, elders and toddlers, or simply your day to day emotions. We’re all here to feel it all. Not to fake a smile and pretend as though everything is perfect, but simply be mindful. Be present in the moment and accept it, or change it. Don’t fight against your surroundings. Nor be living in the past or wishing for the future to come with a tap of your heels. Learn, grow, progress. Continue sipping your caramel-spiced coffee while wandering through this place we call Earth. Tell yourself that you would like to let go of reluctance to better your self, the pessimistic inklings causing you this breathtaking destruction that have managed to become superior in your mind. In this moment of deciding to conquer this “life”, and defeat your fears, stand up tall, take a deep breath, and  pursue your  dreams one by one with your eyes wide open, ready to tackle any task. Welcome to this crazy, beautiful universe. Good luck.